Sunday, November 13, 2005

Why Must There Always Be a Title???

I've been meaning to do this for a while now. As I haven't been disciplined enough to keep a diary in ages, some sort of outlet is needed, I suppose.
I arrived back in Ljubljana very early Monday morning and luckily my boss was kind enough to let me take the day off. I had spent 6 days in Amman then Sunday, my dearest and I left for Aqaba, since that's where my return flight was leaving from. After a wonderful dinner, we walked around Aqaba till it was time to go to the airport...the flight left just after 1am and by the time I reached Ljubljana, I was ready to slip into something more comfortable (like a coma).
On Tuesday I managed to go back to work but was somewhat lost... My entire life has just become so chaotic over the past year, almost like it's out of one of those stupid soap-operas. Too many decisions to make, life altering ones...
I love living in Slovenia, he hates it. He wants to be in Jordan, I'm not sure I could get used to it. After almost 10 years of being here, buying a condo, I love my job and coworkers and love living here, it hurt so much when he said that he couldn't stay, that it was driving him crazy... Should I give Jordan a try?
The explosions in Amman this week didn't make me feel better.... Not that it makes me afraid to go there...I have in places while wars were going on and as much as I hate violence, it isn't something that would scare me enough so I wouldn't want to leave the house... I was so relieved when I called to see where he was and heard that he was safe, visiting a cousin...
Long distance relationships aren't all they're cracked up to be.... but for some reason I've always been somewhat of an incorrigible massochist who is always drawn to things that are anything but simple...
Enough babbling for now as I'm sure this will seem like a bunch of crap for anyone who decides to read it...
Cheers,
Beti

2 comments:

Omar said...

Moving from an arab country to a western one, can be very tough. Eventually though you get used to it. I think the same goes for a western moving into an arab country. Either way it's a challenge :)

Betqa said...

Omar:Yeah, I know what you mean... Well, I think his being half Slovenian and speaking some of the language would help, but since he grew up in Jordan, hadn't been here since he was a teenager and spent several years working in Saudi, I think it was still a cultural shock. I on the other hand am 0% Arab... don't speak the language (well, I'm trying to learn now... but apart from greetings and a few curse words, my vocabulary is limited and I can't even have a simple conversation)... If I were rich, I'd go for having places in both countries and just moving back and forth :)